Hi! Again

It's been a long time since I wrote last. Oops. Shout out to kaylee for reminding me! Haha. She's awesome. Anyways, a lot in my life has changed since the last time we've chatted. I'm still a mommy, I'm still in love with Skye Redwood, and I still love it all. Hosanna has been going through some crazy-ness in the last few months. She's learned to crawl, walk along furniture, say mama dada papa, she absolutely LOVES eating. It's the sweetest thing ever. We practice baby led weaning. Baby led weaning is basically letting your baby feed themselves and skipping the baby food. To some people it sounds barbaric and I was a little iffy until hosanna decided for us. We tried baby food for about two weeks and it felt like it always was a struggle. A fun struggle at least! Anyways, one day Hosanna up and grabbed a French fry from me. I freaked out for a second but she was handling that fry like a boss. From there on we basically went with out intuition on what to feed hosanna. Anyways, we'll move on from food haha. I've spent the last eight months watching this beautiful girl grow and what a privilege that has been. It has been a crazy, hard journey but I wouldn't have it any other way. 

Skye, as most of you know, is my boyfriend. I don't know how well you know him so here's a little bit of a background. He grew up in fort quappelle and has lived here and in Lipton for all his life. He had a rough childhood and maybe one day he'll write a post on here about it. Anyways, he's such an amazing dad. He blows me away when I see him with our daughter. He never had a good father so he never really knew how to be one but he is an exceptional father. The love he has for hosanna is a beautiful thing. I wish I could capture it for you to see it. Besides a father, Skye is also an addict. He's always been one, but the substance has differed. From ecstasy to alcohol, he's been there. Another side that many see but don't understand about him is his mental illnesses. Skye suffers from OCD. Obsessive compulsive disorder. He also occasionally suffers from paranoia. He's also been suffering from anxiety attacks and depression since long before we met. Some days are a struggle for our family but we get through them. Living with someone who has mental illness can be a struggle but I'm sure living with the mental illnesses he has is much more of a struggle. He's an amazing man regardless of his mental illness. ❤️

And now me. I have been the same. Still struggling with depression, still madly in love with my family and still struggling with my faith. I never went into that before but I think I'm ready to be more open about it now. I would like to think I'm a Christian. I am far from where I'd like to be and I'm struggling to make progress but there's still hope. I'm not perfect, I'm not like Christ in anyway but I am trying. I still haven't gathered my thoughts much on that subject so I'll leave it at that. Besides all that I've been good. I have days that are better than others like everyone else, but so far I've survived. So I'll leave it at that. Here's some pictures of my family from the last couple of days!